DEPARTING YAK; AK; IN INST WX CONDITIONS WITHOUT FULL UNDERSTANDING OF HIS CLRNC RESULTS IN FLYING AN UNASSIGNED INST DEP INSTEAD OF THE OBSTACLE DEP PROC THAT WAS INTENDED.

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ON DEP FROM YAK IN IFR CONDITIONS; I WAS GIVEN A CLRNC TO DEPART USING THE PUBLISHED DEP. I UNDERSTOOD THAT TO BE THE PUBLISHED SID. INSTEAD OF DEPARTING USING THE PUBLISHED DEP; I DEPARTED USING THE SID. I SUBSEQUENTLY REALIZED THE DEP WAS NOT MAKING SENSE AND ADVISED CTR I WANTED CLARIFICATION. I WAS THEN TOLD TO TURN TO A HEADING TO INTERCEPT V440. I BELIEVE I SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE FAMILIAR WITH THE TERMINOLOGY; THAT I SHOULD HAVE LOOKED MORE CLOSELY AT THE DEP AND REALIZED IT DID NOT MAKE SENSE BEFORE ACCEPTING WHAT I UNDERSTOOD IT TO BE. IT WAS OBVIOUS WHEN RECEIVING THE CLRNC; I WAS HAVING DIFFICULTY UNDERSTANDING THE CLRNC; SINCE I COULD NOT LOCATE THE AMBER ROUTING AND THAT THERE WAS CONFUSION ON MY PART. I THOUGHT I UNDERSTOOD THE CLRNC; BUT I THINK IT WAS OBVIOUS TO FSS I DID NOT. I TOLD FSS I WAS HAVING DIFFICULTY FINDING THE CLRNC AND YET IT WAS NOT READ OFF TO ME AS PUBLISHED. I WAS TOLD IT WAS IN THE FIRST PAGES OF THE CHARTS; BUT I SAID I WAS USING COMMERCIAL CHARTS AND I LATER LEARNED THE DEP WAS PUBLISHED ON THE ARPT DIAGRAM. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THIS. HOWEVER; WHEN THE CONFUSION WAS OBVIOUS; I SHOULD HAVE BEEN GIVEN CLARIFIED INSTRUCTIONS. IT WAS A SIMPLE MATTER TO ADVISE ME TO DEPART AND INTERCEPT V440. I TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY SINCE IT IS MY OBLIGATION TO UNDERSTAND THE TERMINOLOGY; HOWEVER; A NEAR TRAGEDY COULD HAVE BEEN AVERTED HAD I BEEN SIMPLY TOLD THE DEP ROUTING. NEVERTHELESS; I WAS GREATLY UPSET BY THE MISUNDERSTANDING AND HAVE MADE ARRANGEMENTS TO OBTAIN SOME INTENSIVE IFR TRAINING. I AM FEARFUL OF MISUNDERSTANDING SUCH A CLRNC IN THE FUTURE AND I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MY CURRENT RUSTY LEVEL OF SKILL. I DO NOT INTEND TO FLY IFR UNTIL I OBTAIN ADDITIONAL TRAINING. THIS EXPERIENCE WAS FAR TOO SCARY.