THE PLT OF A BASIC IFR AVIONICS EQUIPPED BELLANCA BECAME DISORIENTED ON 2 ILS APCHS.

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I ATTEMPTED THE ILS RWY 26 APCH AT LUBBOCK INTL. DSNDING THROUGH CLOUD LAYER IN IMC 4800 FT TO 800 FT CEILING; I NEVER GOT ESTABLISHED ON LOC. I BECAME SLIGHTLY DISORIENTED AND GOT INTO A DANGEROUS ATTITUDE. I REGAINED FULL CTL; BUT NEVER CALLED MISSED APCH. APCH; SENSING A PROB; THEN VECTORED ME TO 5000 FT AND SET UP A SECOND APCH. THE SECOND TRY WENT MUCH BETTER AND WAS ESTABLISHED ON LOC AND GS TO THE MIDDLE MARKER; BUT LOST LOC AND COULD NOT RE-ESTABLISH. I THEN CALLED MISSED APCH AND WAS GIVEN VECTORS TO ON TOP. I NEVER BEGAN THE PUBLISHED MISSED APCH PROC ON THE 2 APCHS. I DON'T KNOW IF THIS IS FAR VIOLATION OR NOT; SINCE I FOLLOWED APCH CTL INSTRUCTIONS RATHER THAN PUBLISHED PROCS. I SHOULD NOT HAVE ATTEMPTED THIS APCH IN MY CURRENT AIRPLANE; WHICH DOES NOT HAVE ANY BUT BASIC IFR EQUIP. I ALSO WAS HAND FLYING THE APCH SINCE THE AUTOPLT HAD GIVEN ME SOME TROUBLE AND I WASN'T COMFORTABLE WITH IT. I WILL NOT ATTEMPT APCHS WITH CEILINGS LESS THAN 1500 FT UNTIL I HAVE DONE A LOT OF RECURRENT TRAINING AND HAVE A BETTER IFR PANEL IN FRONT OF ME.